The blog is all set for 2013

The Blog is all set for 2013, it has a swanky new look, updated Wishlist for 2013, updated About Me section, twitter feed of my personal twitter (yes I can’t believe I am letting go of the anonymity) and a new search button to look for entries on the blog. There is also a new section to sign up for updates! I am in full mood to take this 10 steps ahead of what it was until this year.

I have also decided to use my blog name initials for signing off each entry because it’s confusing, sometimes I use Motormouth, sometimes Drama Queen and sometimes just me. Going forward all entries will be signed off as Miss M.

Yay!

Love,
Miss M

Color me Yellow!

As I sit in my dimly lit room, sipping good whiskey and watching a good series, I can’t help but think about the past few months. This is how whiskey is different from any another drink – it gives you a sense of subtle euphoria despite the underlying sorrows that you might be living with.

Never mind, sorrows are a chapter I am not willing to discuss. I figured if I can’t stomach sorrows then I must not engage in passive aggressive blogging about it either.

Coming back to the dimly lit room, I painted my room with a fresh coat of yellow paint. It looks pretty and I finally got rid of all the clutter in my room and as I sit here thinking about what tomorrow will look like, all I can see is a new city and fresh chance.  It is a bitter sweet feeling.

This is probably the last chance I will get at having a new life in a new city and I must not waste it like all the other chances I got. I have pegged some expectations towards this one and even though having learnt fairly recently that I must not expect from others, I do have some expectations from a new city. A new city will give me a fresh lease of life which is why I am spending the one month that is left into calming myself down and forgiving and forgetting a lot and literally reducing my friend list. No Joke!

I am excited and a bit remorse all at the same time.

Also, a little tipsy I think…:D

TTYL

Me

Kamaal Karte Ho Pandey Ji

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Haaaayeee! Kya Film Hai! Har roz kyun nahi release hoti ek nayi Dabangg!

I usually never ever write about movies because I know I will suck at writing any review, however, Dabangg is an exception to that rule and let me tell you that there was no way I was going to sleep today without writing about Dabangg. Please note that I will not be talking about the story or the plot because I hate spoilers so I don’t want to spoil it for anyone reading this post. This post is about what I felt about the movie. Yes I FELT…..

First things first: Salman Khan rocked the movie. I was gasping for breath when he took off his shirt and this has never happened (not his shirtless stunt but my gasping for breath when an actor does something sexy on screen..NEVER) So yes, I could not take my eyes off Chulbul Pandey even for a moment.

The movie is a full blockbuster masala movie and it is not meant for  people who go to cinemas to find substance and realism….(Isn’t our life full of drama and realism anyway?) This movies is for people like me who go to cinemas to watch masala and Dabangg 2 promises to be the most masaledaar entertainer you have ever seen since Dabangg 1.

The dialogues, the action, the flow – everything about the movie had Super Hit written on it. There was not even a single dull moment. Rajjo looked ravishing and munni made a guest appearance  Arbaaz Khan sure knows how to keep the lucky charms. Kareena Kapoor’s performance was not at par with munni but the lyrics of ‘Fevicol Se’ sure were written by a really chichor man and I loved it. *main toh tandoori murgi hoon yaar, gatka le mujhe alchohol se*

I was just talking to a friend and he asked me why women rave about Chulbul Pandey?

The answer is simple & in bullet points:

  1. Chulbul epitomizes the real hero, not some pseudo do good and be good hero.
  2. The true robin hood: help the poor and make the rich pay!
  3. While he dances with munnis and Fevicol girls – he loves rajjo, marries her and is loyal to her. That is a man of character right there.

He’s sexy and hot is a separate thing all together. It’s this real yet larger than life character that women fall for. We all want a chulbul to love us not a cheddi or a bachha bhaiya!

My Verdict: It does not deserve 5 stars …it deserves 5 Seetis…*Seeti Seeti Seeti Seeti Seeti*

All I have to say is:

Ab zindagi beetegi toh kisi chulbul pandey material ke saath ..varna akele hi sahi! #nocompromise

 

2012: A Personal Review

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There are just a couple of days left before another year comes to an end. So much has happened in 2012 that it’ll be a shame if I don’t chronicle it here and I have been meaning to do some posts around it for the longest time now so I decided to take time out today to do a detailed post on 2012.

In the past I have done some shabby posts on resolutions and year recaps and I can easily and shamelessly say that they have been EPIC FAILURES. Here’s the one I did in 2010 and here’s the one I did in 2011.

One thing is clear, like 90% of people who make resolutions, I am no good. (Where did I come up with that figure? My Brain)

Anyway, so here’s the #1 Reason why I decided to do this post.

If you know me, you know how much I hate self help books, self help blogs and all that, however, this blog has been quite a find – The Art of Non-Conformity. If you’ve ever felt like “there must be more” to life, this is for you. I highly recommend it.

This blog is also the reason why I decided to do a personal review of the year 2012. The idea came from this blog where the author has detailed his personal reviews all the way from 2005 up until now. I thought that is a great idea. Much better than making resolutions I will anyway not stick to post January 10. I also do annual reviews at work which btw are a great way to start a professional year because it gives you a sense of background about how the past year went and helps you greatly in setting goals for the next year. I like the idea of doing this for my personal life too.

How is a personal review done?

You ask yourself two questions:

  1. What went well this year?
  2. What did not go well this year?

Here are my answers to these questions:

What went well this year?

  1. I got awarded and promoted within a year of joining the company. This has by far been the strongest sense of accomplishment I have felt in my life. You might think that it is just a promotion and WTH what is such a big deal but here’s what it really feels like. Just two years back when I started this blog, I had completely lost faith in my ability to do something about my life. I felt like I had been wronged by my own self. I felt that I was a complete disaster and I will not be able to do much about my career. And then in April 2011 I landed this job. I have had a dream run at work so far. Yes, I have worked very hard and I pride myself on it. I took initiatives, learnt new things and never shied away from more work. I got awarded the ‘Rookie of the Year’  at the annual company wide conference (which btw came with a hefty amount lol) and got promoted.#Proudofmyself
  2. Stayed out of Debt: All credit card and utility bill payments  were made in full and on time. The bank balance never dipped to negative or even zero. The spending continued but in limits and in rightful amounts. I have no debts what so ever. This also means that one of my resolutions from 2011 was met in full. #YAY
  3. Bonded with my mother: Like all other girls there did come a stage in my life where I thought I will never get along with my mother and I hoped I don’t end up being like her or making mistakes like her. This was the EPIC year in realizing how wrong I was. I now hope that even if I become half of what she is I will be sorted for the rest of my life. This year I bonded with her and spent so much time talking to her which not only helped me with so many persistent issues but also changed a lot of my notions about certain things in life. This is by far the best thing that has happened to me this year. She now is my best friend and my closest confidante and I consult her on more things than I could have ever imagined. I love you mum xx

What did not go well?

  1. Breakup Finally: So the EMIs of breakup actually got over and I and Big broke up two months back for good. For the longest time I had imagined my life with him and so it was really heartbreaking to know that it will not really become a reality. Some say that there are five stages of grief (You can read more about the Kubler model here) I literally have experienced four of them (Denial, Anger,Bargaining & Depression) in entirety with regards to my break up with him and I am in middle of experiencing the fifth (acceptance). Over the last 6 or 8 months I realized that he is definitely the guy I have by far loved the most and been most committed to (Maybe this is what got the better of me). So many of my close friends have told me that they have never seen my like this before, never see me so smitten, so illogical and so committed. Maybe this had to happen for me to learn that no matter what happens in my life, I will always land back on my feet and I will be just fine and that life always always always moves on. I still end up in tears when I think of him or when we talk about some things. All that will probably change in the times to come as I get ready to embark on a new journey next year. #breakupssuck
  2. Dealt with insecure women: This year has been crazy in the sense that at least 3 women have felt that their boyfriend/husband should not speak to me since they might end up falling for me or have already fallen for me. Seriously WHAT THE FUCK? I ended up losing friends in the process and this totally sucks. These women also know how strongly I felt about Big and that I would not even for a second think about being with someone else. Seriously, I do not understand what is it that I do to intimidate these women? At work, I am known for the good work I have done over the past two years and that is exactly how I want to be known as.
  3. A sickness called Anger: This year has been an EPIC year of anger issues. I just couldn’t control my anger throughout the year. There came a point where I thought that all that was left in me was just anger. I was constantly angry at everyone around me. What it really was? Anger issues with myself. I think I have hurt many people with harsh words, harsher expressions and just words full of spite and rage. As funny as this will sound: I still always had their best intentions in mind but i just did not know of an articulate way to putting them and I would lose patience at the drop of the hat when someone did not manage their lives as I advised them to. It hit me a month back that this has to stop RIGHT NOW. Everybody is the master of their own lives and by no means I have the right to yell at someone for not managing their life better for I am not better at it either. Needless to say I am working on my anger and my mother is coaching me through this. #Angerisasickness

So this was my 2012 review and based on this, here are my goals for 2013.

This year I will not set any resolutions and then not stick to them. I will just give this year a theme and I will try to make 2013 an embodiment of the theme I chose. The theme this year is “be fabulous be happier”  (#BFBH)

My goals this year are not unambitious and unrealistic ones such as 1. Be Happy 2. Be wise etc.

My goals this year are:

1. Continue to stay out of debt, possibly save for a contingency fund.

2. Explore one new city alone this year.

3. Put aside 5 minutes everyday to slowly work on the anger issues.

That’s it. Three goals and I am done with the resolution business. These goals don’t have to start from January 1st, these goals don’t have to happen immediately – all that needs to be done is to give myself time and space to grow into a person who is in full control of her emotions and her finances 😀 #2013

I’d like to end this post with a song from Duran Duran – An Ordinary World! (Don’t ask me why – I was listening to it as I wrote this post and felt like it had something in it for me to post it along with this EPIC 2012 post)

 

We all have that one song…well I have two

I have two. Hindi & English!

1. Whenever I am in a weird mood. Not Sad, Not Angry but just deeply Blah…this is my song. And this song has the power to make me a feel better instantly. its like having a conversation with my life.

2. This song is actually one of my all time favorites. I prefer this version and I love Coldplay. I am actually contemplating doing an entire post on coldplay and my favourite CP numbers!

#musicislife

Love,

me